At the age of 35, I found myself standing at a crossroads, desperately searching for answers, for solace, for peace. It was then that I realized my spirit was troubled. The once radiant light within me had dimmed, and I knew I had to embark on a journey to rediscover my true self.
This is my story of healing, of learning the signs that my spirit was troubled and finding ways to overcome the darkness within. I have made it my life’s mission to help others navigate their own paths and to share the wisdom I’ve gained along the way.
Here, I share with you the 10 signs that led me to recognize my troubled spirit, and the steps I took to overcome the darkness that had enveloped my soul.
1) Disconnection from yourself and others
The first sign that my spirit was troubled was a profound sense of disconnection.
I felt as if I were living my life on autopilot, going through the motions without truly experiencing the world around me. I was unable to connect with others on a deep level, and this left me feeling lonely and isolated.
2) Loss of joy and passion
The things that once brought me joy seemed to have lost their magic. I no longer felt a spark of passion for the activities and hobbies I once loved, and even the simplest pleasures in life seemed dull and colorless.
All I knew was that I felt so tired of living.
3) Constant worry and anxiety
My mind was consumed with worry and anxiety, plagued by a torrent of negative thoughts and fears about the future. I struggled to find peace and quiet, to silence the relentless chatter that filled my head.
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As he mentions in the video, spirituality should be about empowering yourself. Not suppressing emotions, not judging others, not worrying about things you have no control over. It’s about forming a pure connection with who you are at your core.
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4) Emotional outbursts and irritability
As my spirit grew increasingly troubled, I found myself prone to emotional outbursts and irritability. I would lash out at those around me, my patience wearing thin, my temper flaring at the smallest provocation.
I couldn’t help it; I felt like I was drowning, and the only way I could cope was to flail my arms about in panic and anger.
5) Apathy and indecision
Eventually, apathy crept into my life, sapping my motivation and leaving me unable to make decisions. I felt overwhelmed by even the simplest of choices, paralyzed by the fear of making the wrong decision.
I knew I was emotionally spent, and I felt hopeless. I just didn’t have it in me anymore to think deeply about things.
6) Sleep disturbances
My sleep was disturbed, plagued by restless nights and frequent nightmares. I would toss and turn, unable to find comfort in the darkness, my mind racing with a million thoughts and fears.
7) Physical ailments
The turmoil within my spirit began to manifest as physical ailments. I experienced chronic pain, headaches, and fatigue, and my body seemed to be in a constant state of discomfort.
As my spirit continued to suffer, I began to neglect my own well-being. I stopped taking care of my body, my mind, and my spirit, believing that I was undeserving of self-love and care.
9) Withdrawal from social activities
I withdrew from social activities and interactions, retreating into a self-imposed isolation. I avoided friends and family, preferring the solitude of my own company to the warmth and connection of others.
10) Loss of faith and hope
As the darkness within me grew, I lost faith in the divine, in the belief that there was a higher power guiding my life. I felt abandoned and alone in my struggle, and this loss of faith only served to make me feel even more lonely.
Recognizing these signs was the first step on my journey to healing. I knew I couldn’t continue down this path, so I resolved to take action, to seek out ways to mend my broken spirit and rediscover the joy and beauty in life.
Reconnecting with myself
To reconnect, I began practicing mindfulness meditation and journaling, which helped me become more present and aware of my thoughts and feelings.
In addition to mindfulness meditation and journaling, I found that engaging in regular self-reflection and introspection allowed me to better understand the root causes of my disconnection.
I set aside time each day to sit in silence, allowing my thoughts and feelings to arise without judgment, and gradually developed a deeper understanding of my inner world.
This practice allowed me to become more in tune with my emotions and helped me identify areas in my life that needed attention and healing.
I learned to recognize my emotional triggers and developed strategies for managing my reactions. I practiced deep breathing exercises, grounding techniques, and self-soothing strategies to help me regain control of my emotions and respond more calmly to challenging situations.
Rediscovering joy and passion
I made a list of activities and hobbies that had once brought me joy and set out to reintegrate them into my life.
From painting to hiking, I took the time to rediscover my passions and rekindle the fire within me. I experimented with new hobbies and pursued creative outlets, ultimately discovering new sources of joy and fulfillment.
Practicing gratitude and curiosity
As I sought to reignite my passions and find joy in my life, I discovered the power of gratitude and curiosity.
Each day, I began to list the things I was grateful for, focusing on the small moments of joy and beauty that were present in my life. I kept a gratitude journal, writing down the things I was thankful for each day, and this simple act helped to shift my perspective and lift my spirits.
I also cultivated a sense of curiosity, exploring new interests and challenging myself to learn and grow. This mindset shift helped me uncover new sources of fulfillment and sparked a renewed sense of excitement and wonder in my life.
Seeking professional help
As I worked to address the racing thoughts that plagued me, I recognized the importance of prioritizing my mental health. I sought professional help, attended therapy sessions, and explored various treatment options, such as medication and alternative therapies.
Through therapy, I learned to reframe my negative thoughts and develop healthier coping mechanisms. My therapist helped me unravel the tangled web of thoughts and fears that had consumed me.
And as I mentioned earlier, I found relief and guidance from Rudá Iandé’s Free Your Mind video It was truly a great wake-up call for me to start rethinking my life’s purpose and values.
By committing to my mental health and making it a priority, I was able to find a sense of inner peace and stability.
Self-care was another area I had to prioritize. So I dedicated time each day to nurturing my body, mind, and spirit. I began a regular exercise routine, adopted a healthy diet, and made time for activities that nourished my soul.
I came to understand that my physical ailments were intricately connected to my emotional and spiritual well-being. I began to view my health through a holistic lens, recognizing that true healing required a balance of mind, body, and spirit.
In addition to adopting a healthier lifestyle, I explored practices such as energy healing, Reiki, and chakra balancing, which helped me address the energetic imbalances that were contributing to my physical discomfort.
I also began setting small, attainable goals for myself each day, remembering to practice self-compassion along the way. I had to remind myself often that it’s okay to make mistakes and that each decision is an opportunity for growth and learning.
Practicing self-love and acceptance
As I learned to prioritize self-care and treat myself with kindness and compassion, I began to cultivate a sense of self-love and acceptance.
I recognized that my self-worth was not determined by external factors, but rather by my own belief in my inherent value and worthiness.
I practiced affirmations and visualizations and surrounded myself with positive influences that reinforced my newfound sense of self-love.
As I accepted and embraced all aspects of myself, I was able to cultivate a deep sense of self-worth that empowered me to heal and grow.
Upon regaining better control of my emotions, I recognized the importance of setting boundaries and communicating my needs to others.
I began to say no when necessary, prioritizing my own well-being and ensuring that I had the space and energy to heal.
I learned to assert myself in relationships, establishing clear boundaries and expressing my emotional needs openly and honestly.
This allowed me to create healthier relationships and foster a greater sense of emotional stability.
Rebuilding my social life and a sense of community
I slowly began to rebuild my social life, reconnecting with old friends and making new ones. I attended social gatherings and events, starting with small gatherings and working my way up to larger events.
I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and learned to enjoy the company of others once again.
As I reengaged with social activities and worked to overcome my isolation, I realized the importance of building a strong sense of community.
I volunteered at local organizations, attended community events, and joined clubs and groups that aligned with my interests and values.
By actively participating in my community and fostering connections with like-minded individuals, I not only overcame my isolation but also discovered a renewed sense of purpose and belonging.
Seeking spiritual guidance
My journey to rediscover my spirituality led me to explore a wide range of spiritual practices and belief systems. I attended workshops, retreats, and spiritual gatherings, immersing myself in the teachings of various spiritual traditions.
Through this exploration, I found a spiritual practice that resonated with my soul and allowed me to cultivate a deep connection with the divine.
This connection provided me with a sense of comfort and solace, enabling me to see the beauty and purpose in my struggles and find hope in the midst of darkness.
Finally, I learned to forgive myself for the mistakes I had made, for the pain I had caused, and for the time I had lost.
I also realized that I had been holding myself to unrealistic standards and that my fear of failure was preventing me from taking risks and making decisions.
By practicing self-compassion and forgiving myself for my mistakes, I was able to release the burden of perfectionism and embrace the idea that failure is a natural and necessary part of growth.
More importantly, I embraced the notion that healing is a journey, not a destination, and that each step I took brought me closer to inner peace and harmony.
The path to healing a troubled spirit is unique to each individual, but my own experience has taught me that it is possible to overcome the darkness and rediscover the light within.
My journey was not an easy one, but it was necessary. I emerged from the darkness with a newfound sense of strength and resilience, my spirit whole and at peace.
I share my story in the hope that it might inspire others who find themselves in the depths of despair, to let them know that there is a way out, a path to healing and wholeness. May you, too, find your way back to the light.