I find this time of year hard.
The beginning of spring reminds me of a difficult breakup I faced last year.
A week after I moved to be closer to my boyfriend, he dumped me. He told me he wanted to be alone. But I found out he was with someone else, while we were together.
It felt like the world was pulled from beneath me. I was in a dark underground. And didn’t trust anything we shared.
I couldn’t concentrate. I couldn’t write. It started to impact my work. I didn’t want to leave my house.
I didn’t want to go see any of my friends. I didn’t want to go out and have any fun.
And I was concerned because it quickly began to affect my self-confidence.
I felt stuck, and unhappy, and everything seemed hard.
I was tired of crying. Tired of complaining about him to my friends. I was tired of hating him.
I knew I had to find a solution.
Now, this was around the same time I first came across some videos by the shaman Rudá landê.
I was browsing online, looking for any time of help, and I came across a very uplifting man.
His smile got me. He seemed warm and had contagious laughter. It made me feel ike I don’t have to take it so seriously.
In his short, yet powerful, video on love and intimacy, he quickly reminded me of a key message I needed to hear.
The most important relationship is the one we have with ourselves.
So later that afternoon, I spent some time thinking more about what was important to me and where I self-sabotage my relationships.
I’ll be honest. When I looked at the people I engaged with, the men I wanted so badly, I started to see what he was talking about.
The very next day…
I woke up feeling refreshed.
My anxiety about love and finding the perfect partner vanished.
I felt like I was ready to take on my day.
I felt inspired to write again and go out into the world.
I just walk into my day confidently and feel like I can take anything on.
Is this all because of Rudá’s reminder?
There’s no other reason I can think of why my mindset completely shifted. He helped me to see relationships in a new light.
If you want to give it a try, the link can be found here: